By LADY FRITZ LITANG
This might be the first time you’ll hear this so listen to what I have to say.
You were the man I envision to spend my future with. The person I look forward to spending my every waking moment. The guy I wanted my kids to call their father. The husband who drives our family to church every Sunday. The adventure buddy I could only dream of bungee jumping with. The one whose arms I expect to comfort me every night when I sleep. That one human being I can laugh and cry with until our hairs turn gray.
Perhaps I loved you way too much. That’s what happened.
I hate to admit how I lost myself in the process of loving you. And the sad part was, I was willing to.
You gave me time to change my mind. And I did.
Trust me when I say there’s no one else yet, other than you, whom I’m willing to say ‘yes’ to. So regardless if I haven’t said those words after all those ups and downs we’ve been together, you meant more than the world to me.
You still do.
Just that, I decided to love myself more.
Perhaps I am selfish. Perhaps I’m thinking way ahead.
But I am not happy anymore. Neither are you. And I can feel that.
So I love you. That’s the first and last time I’ll ever tell you that.
I am sorry.